Saying Goodbye

At four thirty my alarm went off and i got up and got ready, then me and Lexie drove in the truck with Justin's baggage in the back, and of course we got separated from our parents and were going in circles trying to find the right terminal and all, finally we were all walking into the airport together, first we stood in line to get the tags for Justin's bag, after we went upstairs to wait in line for dropping off the bags then we went to the security line, and everyone stood in line with him thinking we had all the time we wanted to say our goodbyes, but then the lady told us that we weren't supposed to be in the line with him so we had to crawl under the rope separating Justin and us, then i gave Justin a letter i had written, he took it and put it in his bag and then he hugged me across the rope while he was still moving in line, and we all had like a two second hug across the rope, then he had to keep moving and go through security, we watched him go through then he looked back and waved one last time and then he walked out of our sight. we were all standing there balling and everyone was starring at us, but i didn't care i just let it all out. after we dropped him off we all went to break feast and carried on with the rest of our day. little did we know we could have pulled Justin out of line and held him for one more hour, the letter sent to us told us to be there two hours before he had to board his plane and we got there at five and his plane boarded at seven, so we all were devastated when we thought of that. But that was the hardest thing I've ever had to do, it felt like someone ripped out my heart,not to be able to see your brother for two years, not be able to give him a hug or spend any time with him for TWO years is way harder than i thought it would be, when i watched him look back at us and wave and then walk out was the worst thing I've ever seen, i wish i could just give him one more hug and tell him that i love him. i miss him so much and would give anything to just be with him right now, i know he's out there doing the lords work, and he's going to be a great missionary. the rest of the week we were down in the valley i was fine, then when we came home and not having him here was a really weird feeling, then after i unpacked everything i went into Justin's room and when i saw his guitars just sitting there the way he left them i just lost it and i balled and balled. i never knew how much i loved Justin until he left and wasn't there anymore. then yesterday i was laying on my bed after church and then Riley called me to come downstairs because Justin sent a letter, we all read it together and of course being the baby i am i balled again, the letter read:
dear family,
Today has been the hardest best day ever! Leaving the security gate was so hard. i sat there by myself just thinking......i dunno if i can do this but right about the time i met some other elders and i felt 100% better. Then when i got to the MTC it was awsome! i met Taylor and Preston, it was so fun. and in district meeting today i was to be district leader! hope i can do it. i love it here! i love you guys!
Elder Kelley
p.s. my compaions name is Elder Seamons, he is awsome
so it sounds like he loves it and is really enjoying himself! i know justins going to be a great missionary and touch many people! i love you justin!!!